I get compelled to get in fights, fuck with people, etc, etc. All good fun until you realize, it is not going to stop... some take a graceful bow I imagine and move on... me, well... of course not. I spend too much time here. I did grow up with the computer, it is addictive, what can I say? I want to cut it off, take a break, but if I can just keep clicking this site and keep finding people to fuck with... when will it end?
I grew up and my cruel father thought it would be grand to take me around the bad people and lots and lots of chess and boxing, over and over and over, the bad neighborhood, bad schools, etc... I function amazingly well for all of it, but the heated exchanges are highly addictive to me here. It's like playing a passionate game..
The regular interactions, meh.... No I prefer the fighting here to a great extent. . but of course it never ends... where is the face burner, oh don't worry, 2 pop up! See, it only gets worse.
I ask for help, I ask for the account to be stopped. I want to study philosophy and ethics more. I want to do better... I need a break that I can not force myself to take. Now before my opponent (friend, in a weird way) tells me hurr durr you're on the drugs... I assure you I am not!
It's just this site compels me, hence my asking to be deleted, for my own good. Otherwise guess what I will do tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day... sure maybe people say they will fight me and that would be great.... well aside from the fact that when I wrecked my CB360 the doctors said I had an aneurysm ... so I shouldn't be fighting, ha. I don't use that as a crutch either, I miss boxing... It's sad that I am no longer allowed!!!
Anyhow, goodbye, good luck friends/ opponents/ time wasters... may the good times continue here sans me, may I find more meaningful and productive uses of my time.